…and it takes you to the formless
Have you ever noticed how emotions, once sparked, tend to stick around? Especially negative ones.
Today I have noticed this fenomenon and investigated it more thouroughly than in the past, and noticed something interesting: I had a strange anger, that I could not exactly connect to a particular event. I mean, there was something, but the detail was that the same happening would have meant nothing in many other occasions, and yet I was a bit angry and resentful. By sitting with it, I could see how that particular anger was actually causeless in itself, got lightened by that particular spark, and was going around myself a bit more.
So I just sat with it. And it got transformed in some other energy, much more enjoyable, in pure fuel. Something must have been watching more carefully, because I also noticed how that initial energy, in itself not particularly pleasant (especially because it was drawing me to be a little aggressive and grumpy), disappeared. It was actually transformed, as I just described, but the bad taste of it dissolved.
The attention that watched the fenomenon has stuck around further, for it became apparent that by feeling it through in the body, by breathing it all in, I got rid of that annoying stickiness that tends to come with negative emotions. At that point somehow I knew that -on a much larger scale- the reason why powerful emotional states keep churning us for so long can be related exactly to the lack of willingness to face them.
In short what we do seems to be: posponing. Just as when we were kids we would pospone an annoying homework, and beg mummy to let us play a bit further, today we pospone facing what comes up. And whatever comes up, just like a little kid, keeps pulling our trousers and skirts until we dedicate our full attention to it. And just like those little kids, as soon as we sit down and look at them in the eye, asking gently “what is it love?” and taking the time to relate to it, to make sure they are fine, they end up -how obviously- being just perfect.
A fairly amazing side effect? That “being perfect” happens to mean that you have been taken to the formless. Where cause and effect do not exist, time does not exist, and everything IS perfect as it is. Even that annoying emotion or emotional state becomes perfect, because it was the rope that pulled us here. I found myself pretty grateful to it.
Thanks, Christine Wushke ( http://innerlightyoga.blogspot.ca/ )
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